It seems that every six months I have a mental crisis on what the hell I’m supposed to do with this precious life I’ve been granted. So, here I am yet again with the crisis in full chaos. Though it doesn’t seem I’m the only one with this issue. There seems to be an epidemic taking over generation X. An identity crisis epidemic filled with uncertainty and a longing for something much greater in life than a good career and wealth. It seems as though we want fulfillment of our souls. It’s no mystery as to where this is all coming from and why the hell this is all happening. The majority of generation X has witnessed the lives of their parents in jobs they are grateful for yet unhappy do to wasting their whole lives in an office and forgetting the dreams they created in their younger days. Life passed them by while they sat at a desk under the flickering of florescent lighting. Though it’s never too late to leave the rat race, I’m determined to escape this fate before it catches up to me. I’ve done a lot of soul searching and read a lot of books but I’ve learned nothing is going to give you the answer to your life’s question unless you ask your soul. It’s the scariest question I’ll ever ask myself, but I now know there is no escaping it unless I want the same fate as so many in society.
My goal for the week is to answer these questions and be open and honest with myself. If you want more out of life and are enduring the same struggles as so many, do yourself a favor and answer them. Write it all down and be completely honest with yourself. Tell your ego to fuck off for an hour and let your soul do all the talking; you’ll thank yourself ten years from now.
- What do I love about myself & what do I love doing most? What makes me so happy I can’t bare to live without it?
- What do I despise more than anything?
- Is money important to me? How much do I want to live on?
- Close your eyes and dream for a few minutes. It’s 5 years from this very moment. You are the happiest you’ve ever been and you’re living your dream life. What are you doing? Who are you surrounding yourself with? What is your lifestyle like? Where are you living? What are you doing as a means of making a living?
Now that you’ve answered all these questions it’s time to reflect. Read the answers your soul has poured out onto the pages. Read everything as many times as you need to and let all the information soak into your mind. Now meditate on the experience you’ve just created and what your soul has told you.
Answer this one last question…
Go demolish those obstacles. Everything you have envisioned can happen in your life. It’s probably not going to be easy, but hard work never hurts anyone. After all, have you ever heard anyone living out their dreams say ‘I regret all the hard work I did to get here’?
I haven’t written in such a long time that I basically have forgotten how to almost. Honestly I don’t know why I’ve been on such a hiatus for the past few months but if you follow me on twitter then you know I’ve been blowing that site up with nonsense straight from my mind. Anyways, I guess it’s time for me to get my shit together with this blog again! But then again I’ll be 25 next month and I’m beginning to think I’m one of those people who will never get their shit together. Then again sometimes I think society has raised generation X to believe if we aren’t making money and living a certain way then we are losers, ya know?
I don’t think we are the messed up ones though. Something in my head keeps telling me that the dreamers are living life the right way, but somewhere throughout time some sadistic asshole changed the game of life. Now most of us aren’t even living because we were told it’s wrong to chase dreams and speak your mind. I’m just rambling again, but what else is new. There may not be much of a point to this post but if I can ignite one thing in you today please let it be that you looked at your current situation through a magnifying glass and asked yourself, ‘Am I happy? Am I living my dream, or society’s dream?’.
With all the love in my heart, and all the confusion in my mind!
Are you sabotaging yourself?
A few months ago self sabotage was brought to my attention. I had just quit a miserably dreadful financial job and was so lost in life due to losing my soul in the midst of society standards and American culture. Randomly by fate I came across a book by Tara Bliss & Rachel Magahy called ‘Spirited’. They spoke of sabotaging ourselves and how it hinders our journey in life. We subconsciously do this to ourselves because deep down we may fear the change, work, rejection or whatever may come along on the journey to achieve our dreams and purpose in life. After this strange subconscious act was brought to my attention, I realized I was sabotaging myself almost everyday and had been doing it for years without even knowing. After figuring out my dreams and soul purpose in life, I reflected on what had been keeping me from achievement these last few years. I made a list of all the ways I was self sabotaging and read it quite often to keep these acts fresh in my mind. I’m not going to lie, it’s not easy to let go of them even after the realization of what these acts of sabotage are. The one thing that has kept me going on the journey of conquering the sabotage of my own dreams is one thing:
What a shame it would be if my dreams and purpose weren’t fulfilled because of me… not society, obstacles, or naysayers… but my own ego.
Stop trying to defeat yourself. In the end you are your best supporter and biggest critic. Stop being so critical; you know the amazing lengths of your soul.
Peace & Love!
As previously stated in my last post, I have chronic lack of motivation… (sigh)… BUT I really want to kick 2014′s ass hard core. Though I’ve been out of school for years now I’m attempting to give myself a crash course in taking life by the balls and actually LIVING! Everyday we breath these breaths of life and go though the motions but so many people are not actually living. As walking corpses we’ve let society convince us that this is how we’re ‘supposed’ to be living. Money, vanity, material mass consumption, and technology have been substituted to mask our lives with happiness. Shame on us for thinking material possessions will give us happy lives. Until we realize who we are and what our souls want out of live, we will never be truly happy or actually live. I’m starting with my dreams in hopes of them telling me more about myself.
I’m a dreamer, believer, and lover of the world. At times too obnoxiously optimistic for my own good. Dreamers are such complex and misunderstood people. Most of society views us as children who never grow up, but dreamers are the ones who have changed the world. What are your dreams? Write them down somewhere that you can read them weekly. Your dreams will show a lot about your soul and what you truly want out of life, not what society wants of you.
Keep dreamin’ beautiful souls!
Peace & Love,
I haven’t written in quite some time, but it’s one of my goals for the new year to keep posting. Now that we’re in the second week of the new year I suppose I’ll touch base on resolutions. I recently read an article on entrepreneur.com about the statistics of resolutions. A study shows that only 4% of Americans actually follow through with their resolutions for the new year. This single statistic has urged in wanting to actually complete all of my goals and dreams I’ve created for 2014. If you know me personally, then you know I lack in motivation and excel in procrastination so this year will most definitely be a challenge for me. The first two weeks of the year have been somewhat of a success for me though. Now that I’ve actually come to terms with my flaws that are holding me back from getting things done I feel like I can complete the goals I’ve created for the year.
The article I read pointed out that the reason we aren’t completing the resolutions we set because we are trying to conquer all of our goals at once and it becomes overwhelming. Taking smaller steps and breaking down your resolutions into smaller goals will help achieve the big picture. As part of my resolution I’m on a spiritual journey to enlightenment for 2014. Making small changes so far has been keeping me on track. What are your dreams and goals for the year? If you haven’t made any yet, listen to your soul and take the time to live it out.
My mantra for 2014: LIVE OUT YOUR SOUL!
In the spirit of Halloween I thought I’d share this beautifully haunting artist. I recently found Soley and I don’t know what more to say other than girlfriend is amazing! She’s haunting and spooky and I don’t know whether I should cry or hide under the bed when I hear her music. The melodies make me feel like I’m stuck in a Tim Burton film, scary but enchanting all at the same time.
Listen to her here: